First day of school
Kindergarten
I should be happy
But I want to go home
I want to run screaming
I hate this place
I hate these people
I am so small
It’s why I’m consumed
My hate is bigger than me
I ride the bus home
I sit in the back
I stare out the window
My hallow eyes
She sits in the back too
She is avoiding the smiles
It’s hard to smile back
When you want to die
I ignore her
She ignores me
We don’t notice each other
We’re perfect
I want them out of my face
I don’t care what they do
What they say
Just don’t make me respond
Don’t ask me anything
What I’m thinking
You won’t be happy
I just might scare you
And all they do is tell me
I should care
They want me to care
Well I just don’t
I get home and I am very quiet
I’ve learned this well
There’s nothing I should say
How was your day
Fine I lie
I have nothing to share
I won’t tell you anything
So just don’t ask me again
But I know it’s coming
It’s repeated
By everyone I know
They all ask me differently
I answer them all the same
Fine
I am fine
It was fine
Just fine
Isn’t that good enough
I want to not be regarded
Not spoken of
Or to
Can I get through this world
Without other people
And their boring interests
Just take the things I do love
And hide
Be left alone with my toys
But when I feel I might finally get that
They come a knocking
They say it’s dinnertime
Yet I’m not hungry
But that doesn’t matter
I must do what they say
So I come back to them
They make their talk
And I zone out
And want to die
I bring up something I miss
Like peace and quiet
They don’t want to hear it
My hopes are abandoned
I keep on eating
Listen to my chewing
And count in my head
Replay the stupid things I heard
From older people
Who all told me what to do